I've just come back from a quick holiday with friends and I have all the hope in the world that I'll finish that silly post on the selflessness of dominance this week, but in the mean time, I wanted to say a few words about the last few comments I've received on previous entries...to those readers: thank you.
To Egghead: firstly, thank you for being a true man...your confidence in your own dominance and the way it sounds like you lead your family are encouragement that this does work. And to some extent, I agree that the fact I've "come close" to finding him is encouraging...but in nearly all of the instances of meeting a possible "him," I discovered that each man wasn't really willing to live up to his words...so, I find myself unwillingly cynical toward trusting men at their words :/ But regardless...I'm a woman and I can only exercise so much logic...there comes a point when my heart will take over and no matter how hard I try not to, I'll fall for someone. Hopefully next time, I'll fall for someone worth falling for :)
To wild girl: you're very, very right...and I know all of what you said. I've spent my life knowing that the attitude you carry shows to others...we all think we can fool everyone else, but we can't. When you're unhappy, it shows and you repel others. When you're happy, it shows and everyone wants to be near you. Part of my frustration with myself is that in wallowing and sitting in regret, I'm needlessly wasting time and part of my life. But it's difficult to break out of it, as we all know. I'm getting there, however slowly and unwillingly. I'm so sorry for your loss wild girl...and getting through that had to be 1000 times more difficult than what I've weathered. And yet, you did...so thank you for reminding me that life is meant to be enjoyed, no matter what gets thrown at us :)
The quantum physics example is a perfect reminder - and a lovely metaphor - that I don't know what tomorrow brings. And if I stop paying attention to tomorrow, I might miss that 51% :) I don't want to settle for 50% and spend the rest of my life regretting how close I was to 51%.
I'm getting back to that confidence that I'm better off this way...that the longer I have to wait for Mr. Right, the more I'll appreciate him and the more I'll know he is, in fact, Mr. Right. I'm still increasingly cynical and distrustful that this fairytale I want really exists...I've met so many men who talk the talk, but don't walk the walk, that I still wonder if any men really walk the walk. But I'm still hopeful and I'm still waiting for Mr. Right.
To the person who responded to my post on assertiveness...I'm really touched and flattered that despite the fact that we obviously have very different and opposing views on things, you still related to my words. It gives me hope that perhaps I'm not all that unique and crazy...that perhaps in a way, we all want the same thing. Everyone deserves true happiness...hopefully I'll find mine :)